i 2022

I am more concerned 
With the frame than its
Contents

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More interested in the 
Watch strap than the 
Timepiece 

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More obsessed with 
The fake, the glitch, the replica
Than the real, the pristine, the original

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"The fake is of far greater 
value. In its deliberate attempt 
to be real, it's more 
real than the real thing."

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***

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I am torn between 
A ravenous hunger
For success and prestige

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And a burning 
Yearning for 
Simple contentment 

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I hold dear the ideal of 
Balance
That impossible life 

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“If humans weren't greedy, 
humans wouldn't be humans. 
You must aim to have everything 
you want in 
your life. 
You must struggle otherwise 
you won't get anywhere." 

 

***

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I am a collector of collections: 
Memories and mementos 
Elegies of a me that has been

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My death drive
Is caught in a series of
re:turns

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Do I allow these ghosts to haunt me?
Does severing the past obliterate my self?
What machine holds my memories, my ghosts?

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"Every passion borders 
on the chaotic, but the 
collector's passion borders 
on the chaos of memories."

 

***

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I am not who I was 
Nor who I will be; 
I am that melancholy he, 
That childling forever, 
me

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